my boyfriend and I had or first real fight last Sunday.
Let me tell you the story from the beginning; on Saturday I had to get up early to go to work, just like during the week… and as you have read, I’ve being suffering of insomnia lately so I was not happy on getting up early during the weekend… anyways, after work we went to my parents house to have lunch and after that we came back to my place to watch some t.v. and later on we left to his place to eat and watch some CSI episode (yep he likes CSI too.,) everything sounds good, right?
Well during all that I was trying the best I could not to fall asleep… I was really tired; during the entire week I was looking forward to the weekend to have some proper sleep but the manager at worked decided on Friday, to make us worked on Saturday, so I was pissed out.
When we arrived to his place I went to his bed and fall asleep, I told him I was going to sleep for one hour, but after the hour I wanted to keep sleeping, and that’s what I did.
the next morning, I woke up and he was mad at me, because he had cooked for me and I didn’t manage myself to get up… and also because I promise we were going to watch some CSI… and then he said maybe we were not right for each other after all….
My heart was broken between “maybe we are not” and “right for each other”… 
I felt so sad… especially because I’m on my PMS which means anything makes me sad… Also, because I felt insecure and thought he was going to break up with me…
when he left the room, I pick up my stuff and pack them out. and cry. then I go to the living room and explain things to him. I told him how lowering the dose can make me really sleepy sometimes, and I’ve been having some problems with my sleep during the weeks, I really needed to sleep to be able to work the following week.
I also said I was sorry.
I don’t want to lose him BECAUSE OF Paxil effects. I have lost to many things because of that pill..
the bottom line is:
when you are lowering the doses of Paxil you have to be very careful with the people around you who do not understand what your going though. you need to let them know it’s not you, it the pill talking or acting.
