I have curly hair, and I remember when I was young everybody liked my hair, my long curly hair. It was o.k my mom was the one doing my hair at the time, but then I was old enough to be doing my hair and I decided to make it straight because it was too much work. Curly hair is a full time job to have it in a nice and healthy way.

In my Senior year of High School I decide to stop making it straight, but since I was using a relaxer to make it straight I had to let my hair grow for over a year then I cut it. During that time I had my hair half curl (the roots) and the other half straight… I was always with a ponytail

During my two colleges years in the USA my hair was curly and it was growing. When I came back to Panama I cuted my hair really short (I cuted it myself) it was cool, very fashion (some of my friend said), it was so easy to take care of my hair when it was short.

After a year my hair have grown again, and three days ago I cut it one more time. Must people got upset about it, but they don’t realize how difficult is to have a curly hair in Panama where the humidity is so high and the weather is just not for curly hair…

I got my hair straight with a blower and it looks really nice, so, now I’m back to the dilemma should I make it straight again or not… which way is easier to take care of? that’s the question

I met my Boyfriend through Latinamericancupid.com. I don’t remember when I join that site or why I did it, what I do remember is feeling ready for a relationship.

Since I have the Asperger Syndrome I don’t usually feel the need to socialites with people… unless I know they want to get to know me.

He sent me a message at the end of November 2008, but during that time I was quite busy; I was looking for a job and it was not until the beginning of December I answered him. After the second message I got from him, we started emailing each other everyday. One thing that got my attention was his quick answers to my emails! I liked that

We met in person on my birthday, it was my idea to meet a week before he was leaving to Denmark for a 2 weeks holidays. I needed to know if that was for real, and I needed it to know, right away (I have NO patiences at all).

The first date was nice, we had dinner and we talked, but my sister had a computer situation and my help was needed by her. We agreed to see each other on Sunday for the Christmas parade.

During the Christmas Parade, I felt, it was nice to talk to him. It was very nice; the conversation we had that day were just the type of  conversations I love to have.

I knew I wanted to keep seen him.

After three days we had our first kiss…

Now, after 13 months, I look back and smile. I would have never guessed I was going to meet the man of my dreams through the internet.

My boyfriend had to go back to his home town in Denmark, last Saturday morning (a week ago). Now after 8 months of being together every single weekend, I have to be on my on…
We are emailing each other every day and using Skype every two days, so we can talk for free; until now I have no problems with the audio, I most admit  the quality is pretty good. The video in the other hand is not that good.

The first day without him was very hard, I cried so much; I felt, I was missing a part of me… Everything around me had a memory of the two of us.
I was also in my PMS week… not the perfect moment to start a long distance relationship. You know girls, during that time we cry for every single thing or we get angry for every single thing. I usually get both at the same time… lol

You can make all the reading you want, and try to prepare yourself for the last goodbye, but when you are living that moment, the last kiss, the last hug, you just don’t know what to do to keep yourself from crying. You realize

You can not stop time… and nobody is completely ready to start a long distance relationship.

We will be separate for 5 months, only 21 weeks. We know the day and the time we will see each other again; and I’m trying to keep my eyes on that goal, my strange is coming from the future happiness that is awaiting for us.

I still miss him every night, but that is normal and sometimes just makes you realize how much you love someone.

The test of love is not when we are together. It comes when we are not together and realize that despite the distance, love is still there.