On Friday 14, I said good-bye to Boyfriend. It was a very emotional day for both of us, even though we knew this day was coming.

Last year Boyfriend moved to Oxford, UK because a great job offer was awaiting for him. Before he left we made planes for me to join him for a few month in the UK at the beginning of this year. First, we had to be apart for five months while I was finishing my job in Panama. At that time (August 2009), we have being together for 8 months. Read the rest of this entry »

Have you heard the lyrics of the song When The Sand Runs Out by Rascal Fatts?

I’m gonna stop lookin’ back and start movin’ on
And learn how to face my fears

After I stop taking paxil three weeks ago, ghosts from my past are hunting me, making me feel sorry about myself and all the bad things that happened to me during the time I was on paxil. I know It was a hard time, but now I am out of it, but if I keep thinking about those bad memories I will throw myself back to the hole. It is not an easy thing to do…but, you have to Stop yourself from lookin’ back, I have to start movin’ on

Cause people do it everyday
Promise themselves they’re gonna change
I’ve been there, but I’m changin’ from the inside out

Everyday people are trying to be better, they are trying to change, we don’t realize that the root of all our problems is located inside us! if we want to change, we have to change our way of thinking and the way we look at situations around us. If you archive that, you will be able to say

That was then and this is now
I’m a new man, yeah, I’m a brand new man
And when they carve my stone they’ll write these words
“Here lies a man who lived life for all that its worth”

that was me but this is now,
I am a brand new girl who is learning to face her fears and movin’ on after paxil

My boyfriend and I have been together for almost 6 month, but or first fight was a couple of weeks ago and it was Paxil related. you can read about it in a earlier post. We were waiting for that fight since the beginning of the relationship… ha ha ha. it was a little thing that was going to make us believe the relationship was for real; at least that was he said… he was always wondering why we didn’t have a fight or something like. but I don’t think you need to have a fight everytime, I mean, do you have a fight at the beginning of the relationship, like the first few weeks? do you know how long it’s going to take you to have the first fight?  no….  it depends on the people involve in the relationship.

My boyfriend and I are very good friends and we always have fun when we are together. I think is very important to have a strong friendship first, at least for me it is what makes a good relationship to work out in the long way.

I don’t like to be fighting and I try my best not to put myself in a fighting situation, but when you spend a lot of time with someone, you can’t help to have a fight ones in a while right?

You learn a lot form the one person, after a fight, and you should learn not to do again that thing that started the fight… or at least you know what to do in the next fight.

my boyfriend and I had or first real fight last Sunday.

Let me tell you the story from the beginning; on Saturday I had to get up early to go to work, just like during the week… and as you have read, I’ve being suffering of insomnia lately so I was not happy on getting up early during the weekend… anyways, after work we went to my parents house to have lunch and after that we came back to my place to watch some t.v. and later on we left to his place to eat and watch some CSI episode (yep he likes CSI too.,) everything sounds good, right?

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