Paxil (or Seroxat in the UK) is an antidepressant by the company GlaxoSmithKline and it is used to treat major depression. The active chemical is paroxetine, which is associated with weight gain. However, while I was on Paxil I did not gain any weight but I did experience the other side effects like nausea, somnolence, dry mouth, and headache.

The legal status of this medication is prescription only which means that the only way to obtain Paxil should Read the rest of this entry »

The medical Condition, not the  U2 song ;-p
In a previous post I was explaining about the withdrawal symptoms I am having after I stoping paxil, Vertigo is one of those symptoms.

When you feel things are dizzily turning around or things are dizzily turning about you, that is the vertigo feeling. It is very common to have that symptom after you stop taking paxil, it can also mean a problem with the inner ear.

I was having some problems with my ear a couple of weeks ago, I was feeling some pressure inside my ear ; it was like I had something in it. I did some research about it and I putted some oxygen water inside my ear three times a day and the pain when away,but  it wasn’t really pain I was feeling , it was just bothering me at the moment I had to open my mouth or speak.

I also stop taking paxil a month ago, which is about the time I started feeling vertigo… But I also had the same ear problem months ago… I don’t remember exactly when… hmmm.

what could the reason be?

I stop taking Paxil a month ago, I did have some withdrawal symptoms like nausea, dizziness, vertigo, mood swings. Most of those symptoms have stop after one month, but I still have vertigo and mood swings.

The vertigo doesn’t bothers me as much as the mood swings… I mean going from happiness to a sad stage is a very frustrating situation.  During my PMS! my Goodness, it is a roller coaster of emotion.

Why women have to go through so many things? I don’t think men have so many problems with their moods, they are angry, happy, sad; but we in the other hand have what is in between, angry-happiness, sadness-happiness, angry-sadness, etc. Sometimes we don’t even know what emotion we are feeling…

Men have to be very patient with women sometimes, how do they do it? if sometimes I can’t even stand myself.

I guess lowering the doses, helped me to stop taking paxil. After a month, sometimes before I go to bed I feel like I’m forgetting something, but then I remember ”hey I don’t have to take any pills again!!” I am Paxil Free ;-p

Have you heard the lyrics of the song When The Sand Runs Out by Rascal Fatts?

I’m gonna stop lookin’ back and start movin’ on
And learn how to face my fears

After I stop taking paxil three weeks ago, ghosts from my past are hunting me, making me feel sorry about myself and all the bad things that happened to me during the time I was on paxil. I know It was a hard time, but now I am out of it, but if I keep thinking about those bad memories I will throw myself back to the hole. It is not an easy thing to do…but, you have to Stop yourself from lookin’ back, I have to start movin’ on

Cause people do it everyday
Promise themselves they’re gonna change
I’ve been there, but I’m changin’ from the inside out

Everyday people are trying to be better, they are trying to change, we don’t realize that the root of all our problems is located inside us! if we want to change, we have to change our way of thinking and the way we look at situations around us. If you archive that, you will be able to say

That was then and this is now
I’m a new man, yeah, I’m a brand new man
And when they carve my stone they’ll write these words
“Here lies a man who lived life for all that its worth”

that was me but this is now,
I am a brand new girl who is learning to face her fears and movin’ on after paxil